IL EXAMINO...

The exams are closing in, with only about 2 weeks to spare! And I'm pretty much still unmotivated to study, for a medical student at least...the others are all scrambling to finish their revision. Meanwhile, I'm still daydreaming about the year end hols, when I get to go back to Kuching and meet up with my old pals and pretend to still have a social life and chill at Damai beach again.

I haven't been getting much sleep lately, making me sluggish and lethargic in the daytime...which only adds to the un-motivation. And I've been getting huge eyebags, typical of some medical students.


say hello to my eyebags. I may look happy but I was really very tired when I took this pic...








I've got 2 full years of medical stuff to cram into my tiny head, so I'm resorting to devious methods to finish my revision. Behold, my textbooks:



Medical Immunology Made Memorable






Master Medicine: Microbiology & Infection





Anatomy & Physiology Made Incredibly Easy. Damn straight I wish they had more books like this! See, it even has cutesy cartoons and all:




Meet the pancreatic cells!





But, I was even tempted to buy this:


If I ever graduate and become your doctor, Be Afraid. Be VERY VERY AFRAID




I can imagine all my classmates shaking their heads in disapproval. Yeah, I'm one big a$$ lazy bum! And not worthy of the grand title of med geek :(


By the way, there's this one memorable way to remember the cranial nerve distribution. It's another dirty mnemonic, like most medical ones. Here goes:



Ooh-Olfactory
Ooh-Optic
Ooh-Opthalamic
To-Trochlear
Touch-Trigeminal
And-Abducens
Feel-Facial
Virgin-Vestibulocochlear
Girls-Glossopharyngeal
Vaginas,-Vagus
Such-Spinal accessory
Heaven!-Hypoglossal



Makes me wonder if the creator of this is some horny gynae? *shudders*

Anyway, it has served me well, and I'm sure it'll be useful to you if you're doin med. All the best to those having exams now, and to all meddies too!

I slaughtered Chris Daughtry

Haha..my attempt at singing Over You by Chris Daughtry. Imagine a zombie singing and you're not that far off...Key is too low for me. But who cares, I still like the song

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Jejak Langkah

I'm so annoyed with the pile of assignments in front of me. Can't it just do itself? I'm so flustered to the extent that I'm singing in Malay to soothe my nerves. I recorded it. It's Jejak Langkah by Tohpati. What next, Mandarin or Cantonese songs?

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How to Be Yourself

Have you ever been told to just be yourself? Or told that you're not acting like yourself? Or told that you should be more Malaysian? I guess this has flustered and confused many people, myself included.


Ah, young grasshopper, how do you react to this?


My best guess: We would try to prove them otherwise, that we are not fake poseurs. But I would advice you to do nothing and ignore it. ANYTHING you do to prove that you're being yourself would make yourself seem more insecure and more importantly, FAKE.





On weekends, I work part-time as an ah long (loan shark). Honest!





To be frank, that is not even a valid question, as we are all ACTORS in life. Yes, you heard it. We act out our lives based on how we perceive we should be acting. The obviously fake people are just horrible actors, and stumble around awkwardly like drag queens. To be natural, you have to be talented and convincing. Think George Clooney in ER. Or the cast of Grey's Anatomy who make convincing, if overly dramatic, doctors. To paraphrase Shakespeare, life is a stage, and we are actors in a play. Confused already?


We behave and act based on our ideals of who we should be. We hem ourselves into different roles in society. We feel accomplishment as we selfishly seek and gain approval from around us. For example, a doctor should be respectable and authoritative. A teacher should be nurturing and stern. An emo guy should be, well, emo. A nerd should stay with his books. All feminists hate men. ALL BLONDES ARE DUMB. Thus society places expectations on us to stick to our stereotypes. So, we are not permitted to act contrary to these expectations. Any nail that sticks out will be hammered back in.



All blondes are good in...um.....making beds, right? Damn straight they are!





I beg to differ. I stand firm behind my conviction that everyone is entitled to act however they like, and not be criticized for it. We should be allowed to find our true selves, to experiment with roles, and not stick to the status quo. We should be striving to improve ourselves daily, to try new things, to think outside the box once in a while. Change is imminent for some of us, as we metamorphose into hopefully better people. We are given the power to choose who we want to be. That's why God gave us a will.


So, my sage advice to you would be to reinterpret "being yourself" as "being more confident". After all, confidence is sexy, no? We wouldn't be accused of being fake if we were comfortable in our own skin. Feel free to be different, but don't do it for anyone else's sake other than yourself. Insecurity and people-pleasing behaviour are as obvious as Micheal Jackson's nose.

Nerding

I can't blog for now. Really too busy. Lots of stuff to cover within a month. Two years worth of med school. Here's something I found rather funny:

1 You have ever said “Netter is god”.
2 You can discuss autopsy/ anatomy over a meal [x]
3 You own a 4 color pen
4 It just isn’t enough colors for you
5 You use more than one color to take notes
6 You have use up more than 6 highlighters in the past 6 months
7 you have ever highlighted something YOU wrote
8 you retype handouts given in class
9 you haven’t had a date in 3 months [x]
10 you haven’t had a date since entering med school
11 you have not been able to remember the normal term for something because you were thinking of the medical term (ie reflux for heartburn)
12 You get more sleep in lecture than at home
13 You know the correct spelling for pruritus
[14 - you also know what it means [x]
15 You have ever asked a question in class [x]x]
16 - The prof. didn’t understand the question
17 - you didn’t believe the answer the prof. gave
18 - you went to look it up to see if they were right
19 You can’t hold a conversation on anything other than medschool
20 You skip class to study [x]
21 You’ve said you didn’t do well on a test on which you beat the mean [x]
22 You spend more than 15 hrs a week on e-mail
23 You have a callous on your finger from writing
24 More than one professor knows you by name [x]
25 When you ask a question, a new professor has said “Oh, I’ve heard of you”
26 You can name more amino acids than past presidents
27 You use more than 5 acronyms an hour when talking [x]
28 you actually know what PERRLA stands for
29 You know all the steps of the TCA cycle
30 You do not read PTA as parent teachers association
31 You can remember the muscles in the forearm [x]
32 You know the structures in the urea cycle
33 You know the dermatome distribution [x]
34 You can’t remember what you had for breakfast
35 You can’t spell world, much less backwards
36 You’ve ever been sexually aroused by the breast shadow on an X-ray
37 You equate “morning stiffness” with Rhematoid Arthritis
38 You actually know normal values for plasma Na
39 and for K
40 Missing class causes you extreme stress
41 You have seriously asked someone “So how does that make you feel?”
42 You have asked will this be on the exam [x]
43 -Just after the prof. said it wouldn’t
44 You identify with Deb on E.R.
45 You have made a medical joke [x]
46 -no one laughed [x]
47 -You figure they just weren’t that far in their studying [x]
48 You wear your stethescope around your neck on the bus
49 - you don’t even know which way the thing goes in your ears
50 “SOB” means shortness of breath to you [x]
51 You have gone to student health with suspicion of a disease you have studied [x]
52 -within 3 days of the lecture
53 You have answered a question in class
54 -asked by the professor
55 -it was a rhetorical question
56 You can quote lines from the movie “Malice”
57 -you believe them
58 You can flip your pen over your thumb
59 - with both hands
60 - you do so throughout class
61 You have corrected a professor in class
62 - the rest of the class didn’t understand the lecture to begin with
63 You know how to calculate specificity [x]
64 - positive predictive value [x]
65 - anion gap
66 - you can’t balance your checkbook [x]
67 You don’t know what the weather was like for the past week [x]
68 You don’t know what the weather is like right now
69 You actually talk in open ended questions
70 DIC isn’t a slang term for the penis in your book [x]
71 You think B- is a bad grade
72 you have stressed about a pass/fail class [x]
73 You study during most of your meals [x]
74 You saw nothing abnormal about the Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
75 You draw all of the slides not already provided in the handouts
76 -including the cartoons (humourous type)
77 Anatomy makes you hungry [x]
78 You would even consider saying “Ease back on my finger at your own pace”
79 You know the size of a RBC
80 - you don’t know the size of a football field
81 Your eyesight has worsened by 10 pts or more in the last year
82 You have the library hours memorized
83 You have your own seat in the library
84 You score more than 95 on the Epidemiology final
85 You own more than one white coat
86 You have debated between giving up sleep or eating in order to find more time to study [x]
87 You started studying for boards more than 2 months in advance
88 You have never received a personal invitation to discuss your grades with the dean [x]
89 A tie is the only addition necessary to what you normally wear when you go to see patients
90 You wear scrubs to tests
91 You have made plans to study on a beach during vacation [x]92 - you actually did
93 You have a designated seat in lecture
94 - You have ever asked someone to move from “your seat”
95 You sleep less than 4 hrs a night
96 - you think that is plenty
97 - you have thought about cutting back
98 You study more than 35 hrs outsid of class
99 - you think you are a slackard [x]
100 You think everyone answers yes to most of these questions [x]

My total score: 32

Scale
<20 You’re not in Med school. Go back to your party and leave us alone. We have work to do.
20-35 Either Med school is a breeze or you like the sound of “Senor doctor”35-45 Gotta love that Primary Care
45-60 Well, I never really thought about MD/Phd, but now thatyou mention it…
60-75 Your social life is shot, might as well try to earn lots of money
75-90 Which surgery subspecialty did you say you liked?
>90 All hail, great Med School Nerd master.

Segamat sighting: DotA

Sorry for the long hiatus..Not really in the blogging vibe at the moment. Here's a filler for you all.


I'm currently doing my rural placement in Segamat, Johor.

Segamat is your run-of-the-mill small town. A few shops here and there, plus a supermarket or two. Well, at least it still has McDonalds.






Everything here sort of screams LALA. Sorry Dar Ray.





Anyway, most Malaysians would know what DotA is. Well, the younger ones at least...you know who you are!





In the game, there is this thing called a Chicken:






Here is the same Chicken. PWNED. In Segamat:







....

Another silly tag

Layer One : The Outside
Name : Chris
Birth Date : 5th Nov
Current Status : Single and loving it
Eye Colour : nicer than yours!
Hair Colour : nice :P
Righty or Lefty : Righty

Layer Two : On The Inside
Your Heritage : 50% Foochow, 50% Teochew...100% confused about why that matters so much anyway
Your Fear : Losing a loved one
Your Weakness : A nice smile
You perfect Pizza : Real italian ones, with paper thin crust drizzled with olive oil..


Layer Three : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Thing When You Wake Up : Can I have five more minutes?
Bedtime : Not yet..
Your Most Missed Memory : Chilling on a beach in Australia


Layer Four : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King : Maccas
Single or Group Dates : Single dates.
Adidas or Nike : All Day I Dream About S**
Tea or Nestea : Tea. Nestea sounds real "nasty"
Chocolate or Vanilla : Chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee : Cappuccino

Layer Five : Do You ...
Smoke : No
Curse : Try not to. Doesn't sound good to the ears.
Take a Shower : Hah! Smell me!
Have a Crush : Yeah.
Think You've Been In Love: Yeah. Note the word "think"
Go To School : Yep.
Want To Get Married : Yeah.
Believe In Yourself : Hell yeah!
Think You're a Health Freak : No medical student is one anyway :P


Layer Six : In The Past Month
Drank Alcohol : Just a can of shandy. Dead sober otherwise.
Gone To The Mall : Yep.
Been On Stage : Yep. Once a guitarist, always a guitarist.
Eaten Sushi : Yep.
Dyed Your Hair : Nope. I cut off my dyed hair though


Layer Seven : Have You Ever ...
Played A Stripping Game : No
Changed Who You Were To Fit In : Fit in? Ahahaha! I CREATE the rules

Layer Eight : Age You're Hoping
To Get Married : early to mid 20's


Layer Nine : In A Girl/Guy
Best Eye Colour : Sparkling Brown
Best Hair Colour : Dark Brown
Short Hair or Long Hair : Long

Layer Ten : What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago : wasting my time on this
1 Hour Ago : nap time
4.5 Hours Ago : hugged and bid a friend farewell
1 Month Ago : Breathing?
1 Year Ago : Still breathing?

Layer Eleven : Finish The Sentence
I Love : hugs...and smiles
I Feel : happy and contented with my life
I Hate : insecurity and neediness
I Hide : my billions in a swiss account
I Need : more direction from Him up there


Layer Twelve : Tag Five People
Anna
Ben
Gary
Ji Keon
Anyone else on my contact list

Note to self: One saturday night

Was unusually silent last night...and of all nights for this to happen, bbq nite. Given the array of technical issues, the night sailed on through...on a bright note at that. Thank God! :)

well..although the same could not be said about the cleaning up. Stayed behind until 1am toiling with a small bunch of meddies clearing up the unsightly mess. Frikkin tired thereafter, my bed never felt so good..




But throughout the event,

I was by no means being myself that night. I was so exhausted. Drained. Not physically, as I had my emergency caffeine fix (2 red bulls!)...but in every other imaginable way. My appetite went down the drain. Neither was I in the mood to chat anyone up :(

Photographed the event, people and food. Tried my best to capture the atmosphere. Not eveyone enjoyed the attention by my freelance papparazi-ing. Forgive me, I needed something to keep myself distracted.

Got acquainted with some new faces. Enjoyed the company. Could have been better if I weren't feeling so detached.

Failed to pay attention when I should be listening. My words came out in bouts of verbal diarrhea.

Played the guitar and attempted a few songs. My lack of enthusiasm showed, I suppose. My voice quivered, lacking emotion..and you call that singing?



Just needed to write this as a reminder, a note to myself.

Perhaps I need a breather. I need a good laugh once in a while.

But I shouldn't let my current mood influence upon how I do things. But I suppose these things happen when you least expect it.

The Idiot's Medical Dictionary

Nabeh, very simple leh! No nid to becum loctor ah!


Antibody: against everyone

Artery: the study of fine paintings

Bacteria: back door to a cafeteria

Caesarean section: a district in Rome

Cardiology: advanced study of poker playing

Coma: a punctuation mark

Dilate: to live longer

Genes: blue denim slacks

Haemorrhoid: a male from outer space

Impotent: distinguished, well-known

Labour pain: hurt at work

Organ Transplant: what you do to your piano when you move

Protein: in favour of young people

Red blood count: Count Dracula

Secretion: hiding anything

Tablet: a small table

Terminal illness: getting sick at the airport

Urine: opposite of "you're out"

Varicose: very close

Vein: conceited

It's finally here

It's out...









Done drooling yet?






If you buy me one, I'll be your best friend forever* :P






*until I grow bored of it, that is (sooner than you think)